The Dream of Life

23 Sep

I dreamed a dream last night,

A dream that seemed awkward to me,

The Dream of Life, you see.

I dreamed I was walking on a road,

A long, sometimes dark and narrow street

A road that I thought would bring great danger.

A road that I thought would bring defeat.

On this road I had close encounters

With things that I knew were wrong,

These things tempted me and attempted to hurt me,

But like I was taught I said, “Be gone”.

At the end of this road I saw a Man,

With His arms opened, he said, “My son.”

At this I didn’t quite know how to react,

But I knew when he said, “Well Done!”


1 Aug

Today I’m going to talk about environment. The word environment is defined as the aggregate of surrounding things, conditions, or influences; surroundings; milieu. If you read the first few chapters of Genesis you will see that God created certain environments for certain creations. We must cherish our environments and make sure no foreign elements contaminate or remove us from our environment. If that takes place, bad stuff happens. Let’s look at 3 illustrations of that.

First let’s look at the rose. Did you know that there are roses in the United States that are 250 years old. These roses are this old because they are living in the environment God prepared for them, their rose bushes. If you introduce shears to the rose bush and take a rose out of its prepared environment, it’ll die in about a week and a half. Why? Because the rose isn’t prepared to survive any where except for the place that was created for it.

Let’s look at fish. In the sea, ocean, river, lake, its prepared environment, fish thrive.  A goldfish can live anywhere from 10 to 30 years in its prepared environment. Once a foreign element such as a fishermen’s net is introduced into that environment and the fish unbeknownst are not swims into that net and the fisherman swoops it up and places it in a fish bowl, which though it is water, is not the goldfish’s prepared environment, it’ll live for what a few weeks usually?

Now let’s look at man. If you look at Gen. 2:8 you’ll see where it says God placed the man He made there. Eden was our prepared environment. What makes Eden any different than any other garden? Well it says in Gen 3:8 “And they heard the sound of Jehovah God walking up and down in the garden at the breeze of the day.” God was there. God’s presence was a part of the environment in Eden.  I’m just going to say that God’s presence was the environment in Eden. God’s presence is our prepared environment.  Most of us know the events that took place there. The serpent contaminates the environment and because of that Adam and Eve were kicked out. Once they were kicked out of their prepared environment they immediately began to die. If you look throughout you’ll notice that through the ages people began to die younger and younger. Methuselah lived for 969 years, chances are we won’t make it to 110. Could it be because as the generations progressed, so has the separation from our prepared environment, God’s presence, progressed?  Have you ever been feeling not so well, started worshipping God, got into His presence, and started feeling better? I sure have. Could the reason be that, in that moment of time we were back in our prepared environment? So my challenged to you is to get back into our prepared environment as often as you can, and take note, see how being in the presence of God affects your life, watch the healing, watch the blessing, watch your quality of life increase.

Worship Wednesday

15 Jul

Well today is Worship Wednesday and I thought I would share some of my fave worship songs. Enjoy and remember it is all because of Him we are alive!

I lose it every time I hear this song!


Take my life Jesus!

Just listen!

Be my Everything!

I love you Daddy God!

My heart will a song will rise!

Girl can sing!

There are many more songs I love, but I end with this one.

Post some of your favorites so I can check them out.

All My Single Ladies…Dudes can read it too.

25 Jun

Being single has not always been easy for me. For a very long time I was not happy being single. I dreamed about the wedding I would one day have. I knew exactly what my dress would look like. I knew where my wedding would be held. I knew every detail of my wedding, except, who my groom was going to be. I prayed and I prayed for God to bless me with a husband. I even had a list of qualities I wanted him to possess. He had to be taller than me. He had to look a certain way. He had to make a certain amount of money. He had to treat me like a princess. I wanted the fairy tale. I wanted a romance straight out of the movies. Then one day, while praying for the man of my dreams, God said to me, “You keep telling me what you want in a husband, but what do you want your husband to want in you? Do you really want the type a man that wants a girl like you?” This hit me to the core. What did God mean? Was I not worthy of being a wife? No. I wasn’t. I spent so much time listing what I wanted my husband to offer me and no time thinking about what I wanted to offer my husband. I wanted a prince, when I wasn’t a princess.

How many other women out there are like that? We want the “perfect” husband when we are in no way prepared to be the “perfect” wife. We want the kind, funny, rich, incredibly handsome man and we want him to except us in all our flaws with not a second thought. We want the fairy tale. Well ladies there is a reason they are called fairy tales, because they are just that, tales. The Prince married Sleeping Beauty because she was beautiful, he nothing about her. What do we call a woman who a man marries just because she’s beautiful? A trophy. Do you really want to be a trophy? I know it may sound glamorous but think about it. Trophies are just there to look at, they have no other purpose. Do you really want your purpose in a marriage to be decoration? Or do you want a marriage that is also a partnership? Well in partnerships both parties have something to offer. What do you have to offer?

Marriage is supposed to be a partnership. So instead of sitting around pining over what you want your husband to offer you maybe you should start preparing yourself for what you want to bring to your partnership. Stop fantasizing about the fairy tales you see on TV and start realizing what marriage is really about. Because maybe the reason you’re still single is not because you haven’t found the right man, maybe you aren’t the right woman……. yet.

Happy Birthday Calayia!!!!

18 Jun

Today my niece, Calayia turns 13.  I remember when she was born and now she’s a teenager.  I don’t think I can deal with this. Though Calayia’s only my niece I love her like a daughter and am ready to go to war with any boy that comes within 10 feet of her.

I love you Layia!!!

My Favorite Things….this week.

9 Jun

This week I thought I’d open up and share with you some of my favorite things. This list changes almost weekly, but you’ll get to know a little more about me.

Since I’m a geek, dork, nerd, etc…I’ll start with my favorite gadget. You probably think I’ll say the new iPhone, and although I’m considering selling a kidney to get it, it, however is not my favorite gadget. The Beanzawave microwave oven works by USB.


Although it's still in prototype phase, this has got to be one of the coolest things I've ever seen.

Although it's still in prototype phase, this has got to be one of the coolest things I've ever seen.



I mean seriously! How jealous would your coworkers be? You’re just sitting at your desk, chillin’, heating up a small bowl of soup, or if you’re in Louisiana gumbo. Coolest thing eva! Click the picture for more information.




Favorite song:  Chris Tomlin – God of This City. This song is all over my Spirit right now!

My Favorite YouTube Video: So Funny!

My Favorite Beauty Product: Mac’s Date Night Dazzleglass Lipglass


         My lipgloss is POPPIN!





Favorite Website No 1: The Hilarious  Awkwardfamilyphotos

Favorite Website No 2:

Favorite Movie: Up!

Favorite TV Show: Around the Horn – ESPN (this changes daily)

So, that’s a little about me. Tell me a little about you.

God is…

5 Jun

A couple days ago both OnePrayer  and both asked us to finish the sentence, God is… After thinking about this for some time and considering the infinite things that God is, I’ve settled on discussing how God is love.

This description of God is one that hits me in the soul. For many years I’ve struggled with believing that I am loved. I had the hardest time believing that anyone could or would love me. I had my family around, but I thought they only loved me because we share a bloodline. I had a couple people that I considered friends, but I never thought they truly loved me. I believed there was a God and that He sent His Son, but how could he love me? God didn’t love me, or so I thought. Before I get into how I found out God loved me, let me go back to why I believe no one did.

I’ve been overweight all my life and a fat kid walking into school for the first time can be like a cow walking into a slaughterhouse. Kids like to poke fun and what makes for a better target than the kid that looks different from you. Not only was I the fat kid, I was the little black girl that talked like a little white girl. I had it tough, though I’m thankful now for what I went through then, while I was growing through it I didn’t understand. I thought it was me. I thought that there had to be something wrong with me for people to pick on me so much. Why would someone love me when there was something wrong with me?

I’m also my mother’s middle child. I have a sister who is seven years older than me and a brother who is seven years younger. Though I knew who my dad was, he was never really around except for to drop a few dollars in my hand every once in a while. So it was just me, my mom, my brother, my sister, and until I was 15 my granddad. I growing up in the middle was difficult. Middle children are often overlooked as was my case at times. My sister needed a lot of attention because she was the oldest. My brother needed a lot of attention because he was the youngest. With a single, working mother, what was left for me? Though I must say once my mom realized what was happening she did what she could to make sure I knew she loved me. But before that, how could my family love me when they don’t know I exist.

When I got older I did things to make sure I was noticed. I showered three or more times a day for a while. I didn’t leave my apartment without make up on. I spent way to much money on my hair and wardrobe, which I still can be guilty of. I had every brand of expensive perfumes and handbags that you could think of. All to mask who I really was, a scared little girl who never really believed she was loved.

Then one day God caught hold of me, he made me look at myself in the mirror without the make up, without the weave, without the expensive clothes. Then He told me to look at myself. He told me that I was beautiful because He made me. He told me that I was lovable because He is love. He asked me if I knew how many hairs I had on my head. I told Him no. He said, “I do. That’s how much I love you. I know the exact number of hairs you have.” Then he lead me to Psalm 139:14 where it says, “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made…” He then took me to 1 John 4:8, “Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.” He told me that I was loved because I was His. That’s enough. I am loved because God is Love. What more could I ask for? The creator of Heaven and of Earth loves me. That’s enough. So now when the those thoughts of being unloved try to creep into my mind I say that’s a lie. I am loved because God is Love!

And let’s not forget His ultimate sacrifice of love. “For God  so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son. That whosoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.”

The song below also helped me a lot.