God, I owe you an apology.

15 Jul

For the majority of my life I’ve treated God poorly. I’ve been treating him like a personal genie. Like an entity who’s only purpose was to do what I wanted and to make my life better. I’ve used God like an omnipotent bodyguard set to do my bidding. I’ve treated God like his purpose was to serve me! Man did I have it twisted. I’ve been acting like a spoiled child kicking and screaming until she gets what she wants. Giving God the silent treatment because he’s not doing what I want or move at my pace. I’ve been acting like the whole world revolves around me. Like I’m God and He is my servant. I’ve been consumed in a world of pridefulness. Instead of thanking him for be so gracious as to give me life, I’ve been wanting more more more. My will be done.

I owe God an apology. God is not my personal genie. He is the creator of the universe.  Everything that exists, exists because of and for Him. If I never existed the Earth would still spin. Instead of saying “God give me more.” I should be saying “God, Thank you for all you’ve done.”

So, God, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for treating you like a servant. I’m sorry for behaving like the world revolves around me and not you. I’m sorry for behaving as if giving me life and giving your Son for me what not enough. I’m sorry for behaving like a spoiled brat. I’m sorry for being prideful. I’m sorry for being selfish. I’m sorry for not living up to the standard you created. I’m sorry for not behaving like your child. I’m sorry for idolizing myself. I’m sorry for having a skewed view of you and doing nothing to fix it. If you never do another thing for me, you’ve done enough and I’m sorry for not realizing it sooner.


Your Daughter

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